Thursday, November 26, 2009

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I have been in the second most turbulent year of my life, I wish I had the words to share who I have moved into, the search. the discovery, it has been a fuckin "A" serious time, but I have found things in me, I had no idea were even there. It is time I stop diggin through the mud of my past, my myths, my personal distortions. I beleive I have the capacity to move beyond my own limitations, I truly do. I also know I have the capacity to be there for and with the rest of you. To know myself, where I belong, to express my strengths, to put myself in some elegant situation, to exceed and excel. Not the measurements or comparisons to the rest of you, to any of you. I will be an inspiration in my life, because I have always been. I may not know how you need to navigate yourself, but I will encourage you to do so. To encourage, entice, compel,inspire, hold you, to hold you like water, all of you held with no resistance to your whim, but you are lighter. To be like salt. I quietly step deeper into myself, as I take a deeper look in compassion at you. I am here, I am here like never before, I will be more, even as I feel more than I ever have, an exponential leap, it's just how I roll. If I can be of any assistance I commit to you. You are who I am here for, you never have to do anything alone, never again. If you are reading this, it is for you, you. You are the only one right now, you always have been. You matter and I know it. I know you, can you hear me? Can you make all you are reading now in this moment matter? Do you know how to give this weight? I am here for you...check it out and see.

3 comments:

  1. thank you for being there for me.... for yourself... and for writing about it. YOu inspire me. I am also diving into a new me and it is hard sometimes....but what I want. how can I really change and keep it in place? How can I really organize my life and my office and my house. Chaos everywhere I look I guess it represents the chaos in my mind and in my soul. I want my cafe to open and there are so many setbacks. And then comes a miracle and whispers to me to keep going. That my dreams really will come true. That is what I choose to focus on and I know that the choosing is the most powerful part of it all. I choose to let love in my life in whatever form it comes.

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  2. How fresh and open does the future look? Are the things you are hanging onto actually part of chaos, or is it confusion? Or is it representing something else? A past perhaps? Choose the life ahead of you, the one based in your dreams, I wonder how much chaos really is in the soul, the hush in it holds so much peace, doesn't it? What do you mean by, "..but what I want. how can I really change and keep it in place?"

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  3. You are a true blessing, I am and will always be thankful.

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